Trusting the Process

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Imagine you’re driving down a road at night. The only illumination is coming from your headlights, and beyond that, the rest is a mystery, shrouded in darkness. You trust that the road continues beyond what you can see, so you keep driving, the guidelines painted on the road snaking off endlessly into the hidden distance.

The healing journey is a little bit like that, and so is life. We keep going, because we trust that there will be a next thing, and a next, that we won’t suddenly cease to exist or fall off into planar nothingness. The healing journey is ours to navigate. It’s important that we trust the guideposts to show us the way. In order to see them, though, we must be paying attention.

Doing the work sometimes means navigating through darkness. Sometimes our only light comes from within, but our inner light is the brightest light of all. Once we uncover it, we remember who we are; we remember our truth. We may reach a point where we decide that we want to discard everything that covers up that light. Through a process of healing, clearing, and releasing—one layer at a time—we discover how brightly we can really shine.

As long as we keep moving and keep desiring to heal and grow, we will. No matter how blocked off we are or how deep our pain, we can reach that heart-opened place of allowing where the answers flow to us and the guideposts light up like beacons. Where we flow easily in alignment with our higher self and receive our highest guidance as naturally as we inhale breath into our lungs.

The more we trust, the more we let go of our grip and relax the need to control outcomes. That’s when things start to come together. Great ideas flow to us, solutions spring up in our path, and we realize suddenly how far we have come. We look back on the times we leaned into trust and flowed with the process, and understand that it led us to exactly where we needed to be.

Daily Reading: January 19, 2021

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As the nineteenth day of the first month, today ushers in energies of endings and subsequent beginnings. Changes may be happening rapidly or just under the surface, shifting things energetically in preparation for their physical outcome. Transformation is indicated all around. Notice where your interests are being guided today and trust your intuition, especially when it comes to making decisions. You may find yourself facing choice points; trusting in your highest guidance to make the decisions that are best for you will yield the most positive outcomes. We are reminded that everything is always working out for us, and that the universe is conspiring in our favor, regardless of how things appear to be on the surface. Today, we may become aware of hidden meanings and forces at work, even within the seemingly ordinary and unimportant. We may be rewriting our thinking in ways that benefit us. 

Adding up all of the numbers in today’s date brings us sixteen and seven. Sixteen brings energies that facilitate harmony, balance, peace, and love. We may see these energies increasing in our personal and career relationships. Leaning into the warmth of community and familial support provides us with strength and solid foundations, a springboard from which to launch new manifestations from a place of steady footing that ensures our best success. With the seven bringing in energies of good fortune, we are sure to succeed. Happiness, growth, positive change, and welcome manifestations are on their way now. We will soon begin to see, if we have not already, amplified outcomes that bring us increased success and forward momentum in the things that matter to us. We are guided to trust where our interests lie and nurture ourselves intellectually, reading and pursuing courses of study that will broaden our horizons and enhance our future possibilities. 

Mantra: This day, I will make powerful improvements in things that are of importance to me. Today, I am advancing in ways that support my highest path and purpose. I am rising up and elevating in every way. 

Daily Reading: December 29, 2020

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Today is the twenty-ninth day of the twelfth month. Twenty-nine suggests co-creative partnerships and is a strong indicator that, along with our higher self and team in spirit, we are supported in our healing as we work to put the past behind us. The number two appears four times in today’s date, a strong indicator that we are supported on all levels and have a strong support system backing us; this can be in the physical but is especially indicated on the nonphysical plane. Each of us has a team in spirit that is loving us unconditionally in every moment, helping us in every way imaginable. We are guided to call on them and ask for their support and assistance with anything that are working on or through. 

Now is the time to move on from what isn’t working. We are always healing on deeper levels, and what we are ready to heal is coming up in our awareness. As we gain an understanding of where we need healing and what it is time for us to release from our lives, simply shifting our focus and attention to what is arising to be healed and setting the intention to begin clearing it begins the process. As always, we are guided to follow our intuition and take any next steps that will support us in our process of healing and releasing the past. Nine is also an indicator that we are expanding in our spiritual abilities, which is a natural result of doing the healing work. The eleven resulting from the two and nine is a gateway number that is opening up the path ahead for us to move forward with our intended life mission. We align more strongly with our purpose when we do this important inner work and, as we progress in our healing journey, we are able to advance even further along on our unique path. 

Adding up all of the numbers in today’s date brings us eighteen, and nine. The nine appearing twice in today’s numbers strongly underscores endings and finality as we hurtle onward toward the close of the year. The current energies are still supporting us—as they always are, but are especially potent now—in clearing, releasing, transmuting, and healing traumas, wounds, past energies that are not serving us, and anything in our life that we are ready to let go of or that needs to go to support our highest good. This release clears the path and makes room for the new and better to enter our lives. We are ready, as a collective and uniquely as individuals on our own paths, to uplevel as never before and move ahead into a brighter tomorrow. We can welcome this better future by preparing ourselves energetically, which means doing the inner work. Healing isn’t a one-and-done affair; it takes time, focus, and dedication, and is well worth the effort. It can make the difference between staying stuck or stagnant and welcoming bright new opportunities, happiness, freedom, and unprecedented clarity. Eighteen indicates that, having done this work, we are making way for new abundance, opportunities, and prosperous beginnings to flow to us.

Mantra: I release with love and forgiveness what does not serve me and welcome all that is for my highest good to flow to me. I step forward on the path of clarity, love, wisdom, and peace.

Daily Reading: December 28, 2020

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Today is the twenty-eighth day of the twelfth month. Twenty-eight indicates abundance through partnerships. It also tells us that when we create harmony and balance in our thoughts and actions, it extends into our external, physical, visible lives. Creating this energetically builds stability and establishes a platform upon which we can build and grow what will last and bear fruit for years to come. We are asked to stay positive, stay focused, and to stay on our path. If our path is unclear at the moment, we are guided to keep returning to what brings us joy. As we continue healing in the ways that serve us, we are strengthening ourselves on every level, beginning with the energetic.

The ten resulting from the combination of two and eight indicates endings, conclusions, completion, and fulfillment. We may be reaching an end to certain cycles in our lives, some momentous, others less apparent and transpiring in the realm of the unseen. Ceremonies, accolades, celebrations, and coming together with friends, family, and associates are indicated now. As we mark milestones through such occasions, we are bringing about an energetic finality that prepares us to move into what comes next. During times of ceremony, even those that mark endings that are not as joyful or momentous, we benefit most from feeling fully all of the emotions surrounding the occasion and processing them completely, so that when the event is done, we can let go and allowing the ending to fulfill its completion, so that we are free and clear and prepared to welcome in positive new energy, situations, and opportunities to the fullest and highest extent.

Adding up all of the numbers in today’s date brings us seventeen, and eight. Seventeen is a powerful number of fortunate new beginnings, happy opportunities, and manifestations, and also indicates a new spiritual path or journey. You may be feeling called to help others and are now stepping forward on your path as a lightworker, perhaps as a teacher or healer. You may be growing in awareness of your life path, purpose, and soul mission for this lifetime and gaining clarity on spiritual aspects of your own journey that are impacting you deeply and meaningfully, providing new clarity for your path forward. Prosperity and auspicious new beginnings are also indicated in seventeen, which reduces to eight, the number of infinite abundance. We are guided to be responsible and to practice integrity in all that we say and do, and to honor others as we would honor ourselves, to unfailingly treat others with kindness, and to strive to bring joy and light to the hearts and minds of those under our influence and to those around us. There is now a great separation as we turn away from what was, from darkness into light, from pain into joy, from despair into a knowing that the universe infinitely provides, and we are asked to welcome the light into our hearts, minds, and lives. We are coming into a fuller understanding of the greatness of our being, of our true divine nature, and feeling more strongly what we came here to do, and who we came here to be. We are guided to trust our hearts above all.

Mantra: I trust in the infinite abundance of the universe. I welcome harmony and stability and step forward onto my path with joy. 

Daily Reading: December 10, 2020

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Today is the tenth day of the twelfth month. Ten symbolizes the end of a cycle and the subsequent beginning of a new one. We are poised at a significant place as we are reaching the end of a cycle that begins transitioning into the new in just a few days, with the 12/12 energetic portal. The eclipse that follows just a few days after that, on 12/14, brings a reset, and the 12/21 solstice flips the switch and signifies the beginning point of the momentum that begins building on that day, as we begin sailing into an increase in light. Now we are being asked to face wounds and traumas and do the work needed to clear and transmute them so we can begin, or continue, to heal. We are preparing now and continuing our preparations for the better that is to come. This work is key, as it makes room for improvements to enter our lives. We first have to clear away the underbrush before we can begin building the new, stronger foundation. 

Adding up all of the numbers in today’s date yields eight. This number calls us back to our eternal nature and asks us to tap into our divinity, where we can draw from a sense of powerful worthiness, limitless strength, and a magnificent connection to the infinite intelligence of the universe. We can reach, through this place, a divine knowing. We are strongly encouraged to go within to reach this place, to connect with who we truly are: this is the Source within. The answers we seek are within us, and no one can guide us like we can guide ourselves. Finding this place can be a journey, but it is one that changes everything, and it is a journey well worth taking. Simply spending twenty minutes breathing and clearing your mind makes space for any messages to come to you. The messages that come from a divine place are different from the mental chatter; you will be able to better distinguish these over time and with practice. It is also important to be aware that we are clearing energetic dross, which may rise to the surface and make itself known so it can be cleared, released, and transmuted. We are guided to let go with love and compassion.

This very important work yields magnificent gifts. Through this daily practice, we become more attuned, can do deep inner healing, receive energetic upgrades, strengthen our energy and our connection to the divine, and open our clairgifts. When we strengthen our energy, we are also forging stronger protections around us. This also helps us to receive messages that are meant for us with greater clarity and accuracy, and to be guided down the path that is truly meant for us—the one that we are meant for—in this lifetime. 

Mantra: I am connected to my inner Source and strengthen my knowing of the divinity within. My path and purpose are clear, and I always perceive with clarity.

Daily Reading: December 9, 2020

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Today is the ninth day of the twelfth month. Nine is a number of integrity, freedom, expansion, and rising up into a higher perspective. It can also guide us to consider our true path and purpose on a soul level for this lifetime and seek to elevate ourselves in every way. The repeating themes you have noticed throughout your life can provide significant clues that help you to understand both why you are here and what may need your attention so you can that you can clear and heal these aspects and reach greater understandings from them. Nine is also associated with helping others and is a number of the lightworker. What brings us joy may also bring joy—and healing or inspiration—to others. What we love to do may be where we find our greatest and truest purpose, our life path and soul mission for this lifetime. Seeing ourselves as eternal beings can help us to rise up into a higher perspective and gain clarity on many things.

Adding up all of the numbers in today’s date yields sixteen, and then seven. Sixteen indicates that harmony is manifesting in your life, and you can expect to see new developments and perhaps opportunities arising that bring greater harmony and balance. Seven is a number of good fortune that aligns with the awakening and expansion of spiritual gifts and abilities, and also connects to wisdom, learning, and the intellect. We may feel guided to begin exploring new paths; these paths could lead us to greater discoveries and could open up a new world of possibilities. Seven is also associated with faith, persistence, and inner strength. New, unexpected opportunities may be coming your way, and you could also be headed for rapid growth and expansion in many areas of your life. 

As we ground more strongly in faith and in the knowing that everything is working out for our highest good, we magnetize the good to us, allowing those new opportunities to come flooding in the more we open to them and release resistance, which can come in the form of lack of belief or doubt. Grounding in our inner strength and protecting our energy may also be important now, especially as we continue on the healing path. Calling on our allies and asking for their assistance in transmuting the energies around us for our highest good can be beneficial, as is calling in more light to replace what we are healing, clearing, and transmuting. Today, we are guided to breathe with intention, visualizing golden light filling the lungs and moving down into the body from crown to root, then expanding out into the energy field, creating a strong sphere of protection around the entire aura, including the front, back, several feet below the feet, and several feet above the head.

Mantra: I welcome new opportunities to flow to me as I strengthen in my knowing that everything is working out for my highest good. I welcome expansion and new understandings as I elevate in every area of my life.

Daily Reading: October 29, 2020

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Today is the twenty-ninth day of the month, and twenty-nine is a number of divinely supported endings. We are being asked to get really clear on what isn’t working for us and then to turn away from it. Doing so, whether in the form of grand gestures or soft intentions, creates an energetic shift that allows what does not serve us to begin flowing out of our lives. We are guided to turn our attention to what we would like to welcome into our lives, and then not to pay any mind to what is making its exit any more than we would give our attention to dirty water flowing down the drain. It’s time to welcome what is clear and fresh and new and healthful.

The numbers in today’s date add up to seven, a number of good fortune, spiritual abilities, life purpose, intelligence, awakening, and wisdom. As we release the past, we make room for what is better to flow to us. When we clear the mental, emotional, and spiritual debris, we make room for growth in these areas, which can bring new ideas, expanded intellect, curiosity, a stronger connection to our intuition and to the divine, and heightened spiritual abilities. Today’s guidance is to consider your life purpose and where you are in regards to it. Do you feel aligned or off-track? When we bring our attention to what lights us up, it can help reorient us to our life purpose, soul mission, or our highest calling. Follow where your passion lies, as it is a great indicator of your highest mission and purpose. Today’s guidance is to look to your joy, and then follow that path. Every day is a new opportunity for you to begin a new story, and it is never too late to revise.

Mantra: My life is my own, and I am free to create the life I desire. I am free to follow my passion and to live a happy, fulfilled life doing what brings me joy.